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Daven baby...

I've spent exactly 9 days with him in singapore. Sad to say, I disliked him alot. He couldn't get used to the environment here, so he was crying half the time. And I couldn't get much help from my family members as they had to work. I had to REALLY learn how to take care of a person 24/7. Feeding, bathing, cleaning his bowels, cleaning his vomits, playing with him and teaching him. And most of all, i couldn't have my free time to do a mask, or blow my hair. Not to mention meeting my friends for coffee. But still, when he smiled or laughed, that's my best ever reward for the hectic day. CUTEST!

Then came the day when i had to bring him back to msia. I was happy that i need not take care of him anymore. That i can finally enjoy my holidays and have my free time. I spent another 2 more days with him, experiencing house-wife life. Haha.

11.59pm, wednesday, 31st dec.
I was counting down beside daven, 12midnite, i was sleeping beside him.
To me, that was the bestest countdown i've ever had! Seeing him sleeping peacefully, smiling dreamily, on my arms...

5.30pm, thurs, 1st jan, segamat train terminal.
My in-laws sent me to the terminal. Before i reached the terminal, I was happy, because my holidays are finally approaching.
But once i reached the terminal, saw the train approaching, my heart starts to ache. My in-laws and Daven were standing at the platform.
I SWEAR it looked like a scene in the movie! I was standing at the carriage door as the train was moving off. I called daven and waved good-bye. He looked at me shocked. Like " how come mummy is on the train going away?"
That look on him broke my heart! My tears were rolling down uncontrollably. I think the guy seating beside me was shocked. Haha. Fucking MISS him already!!

I regretted that I blamed daven for occupying my time. I couldnt wait to spend more time with him now!! I finally understood what being a mum is all about.