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Monday, February 22, 2010
>>> SHOW!

Recently i fell in love with SHOW!!!! Simply love him to death. How can a person be so so handsome, and FUNNY?!

I so so wish that i can be his GF! haha. I know its impossible la.

Today, well well. Not so good for me. Woke up 7.15 am for work. Already woken up, but can't wake baby up to drive me to work, and absolutely does not wanna spend cab fare to work. Hence, took leave again. Its already the 3rd monday of the month i'm absent from work. Heh. Feel damn guilty.



But this time, i dun feel shiok staying at home. The pressure starts to accumulate in me. I start to realise that i cannot live without a job. I need MONEY. I have committments already.

I need the money for our newly bought house, i need a job to apply for s'pore citizenship. I cannot be so irresponsible for my attendance.



BUT I AM REALLY SICK OF OFFICE WORK.

I have said a thousand times to all my friends that i want to change my job. Seriously i have been on a job hunt. But i seem to be lost. What kind of job am i capable of? Except for office based job.

I really don't know. I feel useless all of a sudden...

I keep skipping work because i am really not interested in my current job scope. No interest at all. To the extend that i hate it.


I'm still staying because i know there will be bonus and increment soon. That's why i feel helpless. I can't leave, i have to stay. I have no choice. And i hate it.

God, can i restart my life? I promise to study hard and plan about my life. I feel all messed up right now. Aimless in life.

Worse, I'm a mum. And i feel like i'm still growing up. Quite a shitty feeling.



Tomorrow, i have to put on a fake front to work again.

But he can make me scream....!!! Wahahaha, WOOOOTs! Shuai shuai shuai!!!!!






Work tmr. Sian to the MAX.



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