>>> 360° degrees

This is so sad.. I lost my wretch blog account password…! @#$^$&#%^*

So I’m gonna start a new blog here. =)

Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night (pregnant woman always do, don’t ask me why, I’m clueless too), and got super frustrated cos I can’t get back to sleep and I need to wake up early to take my company transport. All thanks to hub, he pat me back to sleep. =) so sweet.

Actually we quarrelled on Wednesday about baby's permit, where should baby stay, etc.. I felt super sad cos he misunderstood what I was saying. We were at the coffee shop having our dinner. That was the 1st time I see him so upset. So, I decided to give in and shut up. I wanted to cry cos I felt helpless, but i didn't. Big girls don't cry, rite?

Sometimes, JUST SOMETIMES, I will think that my life would be much much better had I chose to abort baby. I won’t need to go through all the customaries, all the visits to relatives, visits to clinics, hospitals, polyclinics, taking medicine, having nauseous, permanent PMS, headaches over getting PR, applying this and that, buying this and that for baby. Hai. What if I did not get pregnant? I might be studying at SIM with my friends, got my driving license, saving up for my Gucci bag and wallet.

And I feel sad, like i'm kinda "stuck" in time... I can't do the things i want to do. because now i have to be responsible for my baby. Whatever i do i have to think bout him 1st. I still have to work no matter how much i hate my job. I can't continue to study because the money saved up is for my baby.

BUT there's no turning back. Aborting the baby will be such a selfish and irresponsible act! SO, i'm quite proud of myself that i have the courage to face so much difficulties. =)

And all this is WORTHWHILE. I now have my own flesh and blood inside me kicking harder den ever. 2 more months to go and i can see my little precious! The precious little that belongs to only me and my beloved hub. =)

Today is a monday and i had those blues again. .i took MC, again. The doc gave me 2 days, but i think i'm going to work tmr. My mum and hub is not very happy cos of my laziness. *opps* I know my attendence is not very good, but i really dislike my job! It is boring to the MAX. No career opportunites. humph. Now i really look forward to my 2 months maternity leave!! haha!